"…but he knew you can’t really be strong until you can see a funny side to things." -One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest
This has been one of my favorite quotes (and books) since I was a teenager. For some reason, I hadn’t thought of it in years, until recently.
"I thought you were really stuck-up and uptight until I met you. " "I thought you were a party-girl until I met you." "You dress like you like George Bush." "You are like Bree Van de Kamp." "Are you a hippie?" "Look at my hipster girlfriend." "You’re so quiet." "You’re such a happy go lucky, free spirit." These are all things that have been said to me. I’m never really sure how I appear to others who don’t know me well; I receive judgements that differ drastically. It shows that you truly can’t judge someone instantly, and you can’t take others’ judgements to heart (if I did, I’d have a pretty intense identify crisis going on). I’m shy at first and it may take a while before I start sending you my favorite (usually inappropriate) pages from Reddit. It may take a while before I tell you that I have an obsession with llama therapy, love my martinis with gin, extra dirty, and that some commercials makes me weep. Each of us view the world through such unique and different lenses; our judgements are clouded and adjusted to fit a vision that is solely ours. Each of us see one another within the context of our own realities.
I have dry humor. I have been diagnosed with the ‘church giggles’ (laughing in inappropriate situations). I’m the first to admit that while I internally love life to a disgusting degree, I can take myself too seriously. My mind is nonstop and I can spin off on certain things. Thankfully, lately I’ve been surrounded with people who remind me to let go. Some are close friends, some are acquaintances and some are simply people that I’ve spoken to once at the grocery store. I’ve been introduced to many new people over the past year, and to parts of old friends that I’d yet to experience. These amazing people remind me to laugh.
While 25 has had its incredibly “adult” moments - many amazing and others far from wonderful reality checks, I do not want to lose that silly, happier go luckier teenager that exists inside somewhere.
Excited giggling on a date, uncontrollable laughter at work meetings every Friday morning, hilariously endearing life-advice from my boss, YouTube videos, texts from friends throughout the day, private messages that are too embarrassing to post on Facebook walls, Skyping with my ridicullusly witty and weird lifelong friend in Canada, reminiscing over dinner, a sleepover with my old roommate who is as honest as a real sister, a Justin Beiber card in the mail (Thanks, J)… there is so much to smile and laugh about.
You can’t be strong until you can see a funny side to things. Strength is beautiful and admirable, but if there is no way for that strength to contract once in awhile, it will break if pushed too hard.
Laugh with me.